I attempted to bridge this distance,
Left YOU 2 comfortably be YOU;
But how was I 2 embrace this existence,
When I was left compromising it 2?
Some words were exhaled without thought,
Some decisions were prematurely made;
Some opinions were like an unwanted wart,
Some mind games were unappreciatively played;
I left the ball in your court;
Watched U play this masquerade!
I hope U smiled & had your fun,
I hope U laughed & felt you won!
Decisions, Decisions- so many to make,
Let's hide and hide and just be fake!
Wake up tomorrow with this picture you drew,
All coz you travel the path that best suits U!

My soul mate, my other half, my bestest friend,

Was it U who said it would never end?
Gave U my heart,
Gave U my all,
Said U'd pick me up,
Said I'd never fall;
But here I lay sprawled across the ground,

Wounded here in the lost & found;

Thought U'd B a man-but U beg 4 time,

Gave U4 long years-watched U steal my prime;

I cried the 1st day-but now I laugh,

It was silly of me2 have walked that path;

There is no future in U- Ur life has no set direction,

2busy staring at mirrors admiring Ur reflection;

There's no problem with that-but relationship's require loving some1 2,

Don't deny what I say- its in ALL that U do!!!
Please delete my number-couldn't bare2 have U call me again,

My final words 2U R all that's been written with this pen!
Goodbye & Good Riddens

It's time to eat-
so it's time to meet,
Bills, Bills, Debts, Debts-
I tight rope walk whilst U remove the nets;
Concerns with being blacklisted-
Intentions constantly twisted;
Time has showed you're in survival mode,
So U burden my road to carry your load...
I bow before you- so you assume your position above me,
I bow before you- so you abort your mission to love me;
Friends means alot to you- but means f#ck all to me,
So if that's all you want- will you please just let me be!
Us guys are sorry we bore U- We know U'd rather be counting sheep,
So us guys now choose to ignore U- Drive you home and let U sleep...
Elz
You are so precious. Yet unfortunately, like all precious things- they get locked away in cold and dark safes waiting for the right occasion to be brought out. So when you find weeks going by and you don't see us... Don't take it too personally- It's only because you're extremely precious...

If there is the smallest flame on a candle it can still be used to burn down a whole forest... However, when a candle loses it's flame completely- it also loses the ability to light even a single leaf...
Similarly, with Love and Friendship- when you break apart- if the love is still there it can grow again... But once you lose it- you will have lost it forever! Unfortunately our Love went a while ago- so it still remains beyond me why U still think that we can be something more than we're not...

Where do my unpublished thoughts loiter?
Do they roam aimlessly in my head?
Or are they conceived at that very instant that I tuck myself into bed?
Whatever their origins- without you these thoughts would never have been created,
It just cuts me deep that a friend as close as U wishes me a Happy Birthday so belated...
Elz

There was a time when the both of us thought about each other 24-7... I guess that will always remain a thing of the past! For even a person like myself who writes every night- I still understand and acknowledge that actions speak far louder  than even the most expressive of words...

How could I fear death? When I'm already dead inside!
& how could I take another breath?
When it's not U who'll be my bride!
U destroyed my every ambition,
U used every last round of Ur ammunition;
Watched U aim point blank at my heart,
& then BANG!!- U pulled the trigger & blew me apart!
I lie here on the floor where U left me,
2 die here on the floor where U left me!
An Angel on the outside- but it's Ur inside that I seek,
So when U slapped me once- U'll should have known I'd never turn the other cheek!
Goodbye
Elz

It feels like hell while I'm with U... & it feels like hell when I'm without U!

Love is Ur game and U break every rule,
Just to view this world on Ur own pedestal;
U criticise my very being,
& degrade all that Ur seeing;
Still I find it in me to forgive U- believing it's just a childish phase,
To find myself lost and deluded in Ur superficial maze!
Searching for ladders but all I see are snakes,
Headed straight downhill to find that U've stripped me of my brakes...
Elz

Sometimes we need to take steps backward in life to actually progress forward...
I may regret leaving U today- but that's only one day of sadness compared to a lifetime minus one day of sadness had I stayed...

From the day I met U till the day I die... I want U to understand that there will always lie a POTENTIAL DIFFERENCE in the SYMMETRY of our LOVE EVOLVING...

EVOLve+ ... +evLOVE

When I offered you my heart- you left it to rot,
Yet now U expect me to give U all that I've got?
B4 U complained that I was just this little boy- too kind!
And now Ur treating me like this little toy U can wind?
I can't see our future- I see nothing more than an organised scandal,
Coz this whole thing feels like we're trying to light a wet candle!!!

We could have a friendSHIP.
We could have a companionSHIP.
We could also have a relationSHIP...
I don't want you to think I left U because- I thought my SHIT don't STINK-
I actually left U because our SHIPS goin' SINK!

Before we met it was only 'U' and no me...

When we finally met- an 'S' was added to 'U' and it made US!
So if Ur wanting this relationship of ours 2 EXIST-

Please understand the importance of the letter 'S'-

Coz it not only governs U and US but it also governs

whether I EXIST & stay or I EXIT & leave!

Ps. Converting yourself into this HISSSSSSSSSING snake you've been this last month- will not get U anywhere...

Although OUR story has been written,
In the mirror I see nothing more than MY reflection;
Our candle should have still be lighten,
But the wind chose 2 howl in our direction!
Left 2 be hurt- so the doors to my heart have become MOTIONLESS,
Left in the dirt- so I have learnt 2 become eMOTIONLESS!
xoxo

How do I love again when all my memories of love bring back nothing but pain...?

You attempt to guide me through the darkness-

Yet you don't hold my hand,

Too scared to ruin all that you selfishly planned;

Complete darkness for more than a week,

So sick of playing hide and go seek;

When will a monkey learn the side effects of greed?

And that to win this race one must not necessarily lead?!

 

It is a pointless venture trying to be a princess in a kingdom of your own imagination...

 

GOODBYE AND GOOD RIDDANCE!!!

 

I own each and every one of your thoughts-

they have all been given my stamp,

Tried to get you by my side for life-

but you thought U'd be a tramp;

A tramp in the eyes of those who care not to know U,

But cared enough to know me,

A tramp in the eyes of those who may not reach U but atleast teach U,

the need for respect and loyalty!

 

The path we take in life is never straight... Straight is boring... We twist we turn- we love we burn...

The only creature on this earth that goes left and right in an attempt to go straight is a snake... And unfortunately Snakes make the worst friends... GOODBYE!!!

The world does not want to see us together,

Yet my mind can't see us apart...

Caught within the whirlwind of society,

Being dragged by their mind driven cart!

Been searching for an Angel since birth,

Travelling the ends of this earth,

So tell me Father-

How can I abort a mission that's already complete?

And how do I trust again-

when I have been shown the ends of deceit?

 

Create some DISTANCE-but don't stay too far behind,

For without Ur guidance I roam around completely blind;

Turn a mountain into a mole hill,Then hide the way you feel,

I'm trying to be our engine- leaving you the steering wheel,

Every twist and every turn,We live and we learn,

Whether we survive these initial stages,

Remains my one and only concern...

It's ironic how the word OUT is so deeply embedded within the word dOUbT... For anytime a girl creates an element of dOUbT she is automatically struck OUT! Goodbye!!!